Awakening
My eyes were not all that big as seen on this image of a figurine. That was part of technical equipment, which in most cases was not understood back then. But as for my awakening process:
Since I incarnated and thus my role/body was born, the oldest things I remember were pre-incarnation. Names, locations, symbols and more - unexplained sensory memories. At that point, I just had to live with them, hoping that I would eventually find out what they mean.
It took some time, but it ultimately started happening. I remembered more and more details and quickly got to the point where I willingly opened a channel to my higher self. That is the essence of Anu, and I am whatever aspects the ever increasing bandwidth between my soul and me is able to hold.
My higher self took me through a crash course of literally everything I needed or wanted to know. For the first few years I thought I would never run out of questions, but we managed to optimize the body<->soul connection to the point where I just had to think about wanting to ask a specific question, and the answer was there immediately. I came to the point where I actually did run out of questions after about 8 years. The learning process then was slower, due to me having so few questions. But the questions I could come up with were extremely specific, allowing me to dive deeper and deeper into specific topics.
All this made it possible for me to learn and in the process remember things much faster than with any other way. And speed was necessary in order for us to do what we are here to do - I personally do not wish to let you wait longer than necessary for us to fix the mistakes we made a very long time ago.
My soul connection grew to the point where I can willingly just switch to what my higher self in a linear way, even though it is not bound by time. Its connections do always target certain coordinates in all required dimensions (space, time, possibility sub-universes), and those are the connections my incarnated mind can handle. If my soul is for example channeling to certain parties, linking in and being part of it actively or passively is a possibility.
A long time ago, we were here without the need of incarnation - mortal, aging. I already learned and researched many of the things I did back then. One of the first things that always fascinated me on planets with evolved life was their biological way of dealing with pathogens of any sort, as well as other possible causes for diseases - in case of Earth/Gaia, this means talking about aminoacids, minerals, enzymes and vitamins. I needed to make sure that every sickness can be cured, not by those substances directly, but by the body utilizing those substances. It requires high doses and not just one or a few of them, but the whole group of vital substances. Recommending aloe vera barbadensis miller at this point.
I grew to again being fascinated by almost all kinds of science. Even though many earth scientists who discovered certain "taboo" things have to face some massive corruption trying to silence them - but this will fade eventually. A very long time ago, before we as a race were united enough, we had similar issues on our world. You need to overcome them, and you will.
Thoughts
Thousands of years ago, we all had symbols representing us in an individual way - in my case, the symbol of "each direction" or "everything" or "everywhere" has lots of meanings, mostly concerning scientific research and knowledge.
I tried to stay away from humans most of the time, but eventually my symbol was being noticed. They adopted it into their alphabet and gave it a specific rank-related "God" meaning, which from their point of view was fitting, even though some of them feared me and saw the symbol as me being everywhere without being seen. Even though I taught some of them the true meaning of my symbol and thus my interests, the true meaning was lost over time.
Out of not being interested in language, I did not follow if my symbol in their language changed over time - but nowadays I do see a symbol that is close to the one I saw them originally adopt into their language.
There are a lot of confessions I should make, and besides all the bad things we (mainly I) did to mankind - which is known to a great lot anyway - I feel, something in particular must be said after thousands of years of grief. Tiamat. When we arrived here as one team, we travelled in a craft with a soul, known as Chaos Dragon Tiamat. She was one of the most loving entities I ever knew.
Some of us eventually sided with the plan of dismantling Tiamat, effectively taking away the vessel the soul was in. Others of us did not want to do that, and I also did not. You can just look those others up, Ereshkigal was one of them. Over time they became mostly depicted as being evil, sadly. WE, those who ultimately dismantled Tiamat, were the evil ones there - we just were not aware, because we did it for a reason. Even though I did not want to, they would have done it anyway - I decided to stay with Tiamat while she was effectively being killed, and the amount of grief eventually made me relatively numb of feelings. That is why I could do the things I did to mankind - for the longest time, I felt almost nothing. Except for Inanna eventually.